AMIDST ALL THE STRUGGLES.... LIFE IS MORE REWARDING...

Isn't life so wonderful!!! I've spent a meaningless and a meaningful life. Whatever you call it, God has given us the discernment to know what lies ahead of us.........

I tried to pose and jot this note. I haven't written for quite some time. I missed writing in my diary. But it is my heart's desire to express my emotion about my life's continuous struggle.

For the last 6 months of my struggle in writing my thesis for my masters, I have the nerve now to write this. Amidst all the pain, the high bloods, the 24 hours service of my laptop doing all the revisions and editing, I succumb to the idea of giving up. But then.... God is trying to wake up and rushing my adrenalin.... and gets me going. I have to up 4 o'clock in the morning and sleep again 4 o'clock again in the morning. I have to struggle not to notice my kids even though they are pleading for my attention.... trying to caught my attention, I have to pretend that I haven't notice them even to the extent of ignoring and worst, scolding them. I have to admit that sometimes I told myself I can do it alone.... kaya ko ni. But at the end of the day, you have to tell yourself.... God still is the Sustainer of grace. And the people who really cares for you are those called the shock-absorber. These are the people who behind my tears and bulging eyes, still constantly reminds you of your role... being a mom, a wife, a daughter, a sister, an aunt, a cousin, a niece, a student, a friend.... and a teacher whatever you call them and whatever languages or adjectives you express the,, still my heart could not express my gratitude to those who helped me out with my graduate studies. These piece of notepad is not enough for me to write all my sentiment. Bur in the long run...i could sense that after all these achievements, we shall all die.

At the end of the day, you can ponder upon all those things that you had done. And then after all what? I have done everything to please everyone. But, on the contrary you cannot do that. Because we are only human, we can commit imperfections and to our society, this is not acceptable. After all I would say. God knows alone our heart's desire. For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaketh.

And after all the effort, here you go back again to your responsibility. Doing all school works, taking care of the kids, calling my husband on the phone, missing him for so long now. But then, God still gives me the courage to continue struggling and enduring...'till He comes.

As what I'm trying to reach out to the lost souls, God is almost done with His creation. And finally, He will fulfill His proise to those who believe on Him. Not all who said Lord, Lord shall enter into the kingdom of God. We should take heed to His words now. We are in the last days.... perilous times shall come. There are divers pestilences, earthquakes, wars. Nation will rise against nations, famine, drought, crimes, economic crises. But amidst all these..... God alone knows when He comes.

I wrote this note to inform everyone that whatever endeavors, achievements, wealth, knowledge, fame, friends.... and everything, you cannot bring this when we die.


Try to meditate and reflect upon yourself whether you want to stay here on this deserted world or you want to stay with the Lord.... try now, don't wait for tomorrow for tomorrow might never come.... And satan might laugh at us or these note!